By Dthrip The first time I noticed it, I was buttering toast. The butter was too cold. The knife caught a crumb. The crumb fell onto the linoleum. I stared at that crumb for seventeen seconds. Not because I was counting. But because something behind my eyes had begun to count everything.
And then I'll start again.
My neighbor, Mrs. Kellaway, knocked this morning. She wanted sugar. I opened the door holding a measuring tape. She didn't ask why. People don't ask why anymore. They've learned that the answer is either boring or terrifying. I gave her the sugar, then closed the door and measured the distance from the handle to the strike plate. 2.4 centimeters. It was 2.4 centimeters yesterday, too. I measured anyway. a kind of madness dthrip
It does have one too many letters. That's not the madness talking. That's just true. By Dthrip The first time I noticed it, I was buttering toast
The madness is that I will spend the next hour trying to figure out which one to remove. The crumb fell onto the linoleum
That is the kind of madness I mean: the kind that looks like diligence. The kind that wears a collared shirt and pays its bills on time and never misses a dental appointment. The kind that smiles at the pharmacist and says, "Just the usual," while inside, a tiny, furious god is rearranging the vowels in the word refrigerator to see if it spells anything ominous.
The problem is that the Hum is quiet now. And I know—I know —that means it's saving up. Tomorrow, it might decide that the shadows on the wall are wrong. That the light switch needs to be flipped exactly seventeen times before bed. That the word enough has one too many letters.